You know I have lost my brother very recently to his ignorance. He will not believe that what happened happened to me. He keeps unblocking me and abusing me calling me all sorts of C##t. and most importantly that HE KNOWS SOMETHING which will prove i am lying. But he won't tell me. He has known for 16 years. I never told anyone for 23 years. Why he has decided this now - well i am so confused.I have racked my brains trying to think what he could possible have seen? But all my deep dark secrets have been dealt with. Even the naughty non - abusive ones.
I felt the old doubt and shame creep back in. But I have stopped it because i am a survivor. I can't control him or his anger and it is a relief now that i never have to talk to him or see him again. Fortunately we do not live in the same country. I am sure he will try and get to me again. But naively i didn't block him. but i have now. It hard telling my kids as they love him - but they only see the good side. I have emailed his tirade to one of my children so she can see for herself what he is trying to do to me. My mum is dying and at the moment i have made the choice not to go to see her as he hAS intimidated and threatened me. My kids need to know why I have made this decision. But the old brain is working out solutions to get around this. Just don't underestand people sometimes.
Letting You Into My World,